Today I went to lunch with a friend who has also lost a child. He is two years further down the path than we are. One of the things that he shared with me was that he wished he would have written his feelings down as they happened. I have so many words and emotions swirling around in my head. So many happenings and images to process. It feels to painful to sort through. One at a time I guess. One that I do not want to forget is this: When we were all surrounding Amber's bed on that last day...we were surrounding Necie like a big love blanket as she tried to understand that her Mom would soon be leaving for Heaven. Her Aunts and Uncles, Grandparents would just spontaneously say " Love you Nece!! Love you Netchia!! Love you Necie...reassuring her as she held her Mommie's hand. She would reply each time..in the saddest little voice...love you. The love in that room was so pure..so honest..I hope that I never ever forget what that felt like. Love you Am.